THE FIRST 12... Oh the strength it takes to be serious about the rules. I am starting my journey by focusing mainly on abiding by the rules, at least for the first few days. I will read them several times a day to keep them fresh. It feels sooo good to recognize that you're straying and a rule pops into mind. BOOM! Back on track.
I must say, My W has been a bit different as of the last few days. Although, I saw the rule list about that time and I may have been unknowingly applying some of them. She has been a bit more "around" and not so avoiding and a bit more talkative. I really don't think she is talking to OM3 any more, but I will not let my guard down. We have convo's about things I am doing this week (RC/Nerd Festival, LOL) as well as her plans to go to her parents house in PA with the kids. We have always been able to discuss things about the kids, and I believe that is a great thing.
Last night was a hard test of my new journey. I broke my collar bone several years ago and had to have a plate put in. Broke it into 5 pieces, ten screws in total... Anyhow I was having some really bad muscle cramps last night and was having trouble bearing the pain it was causing. I got up to get some Advil, she suggested some icy hot, which I put some on then sat down on the bed and she began rubbing my back. She hasn't touched me (that way) in a month. I wanted to enjoy it so much but all I could think about was the rules. I thought, maybe this is the 50% of what she does that I should believe... Well, maybe, but F that. It's a trap! Back on track. I laid back down, said thank you and fell asleep.
She gets up around 5:15 and I normally get up around 5:30. Typically she is at the kitchen table eating. I snag a cup of coffee, we do say good morning to each other, normally. Today she said it first so I replied the same. Got my cup and headed to my office/garage. She gets ready for work and heads out about 6:45 every day. This is pretty normal. When she comes out, she takes her things to the car and comes back to the door of the garage where I meet her. Today she offered a hug which I returned to not be rude and then let me know our boy was awake, etc. I told her have a great day and went in to hang with my boy. No texting today as I have a lot of things to do and I want to get them all finished and keep my mind on track.
I plan to keep this thread updated as much as possible. I have discussed a lot of this with my parents up to this point. No more breaking that rule. You guys are my ear now.
