I have done my best to this point to let W go and detach. At this point I think I feel more pity than anything for my W. I am sad that she is not herself- that she is not happy. I am aware that she has chosen this path and that she must venture on this journey alone.
This is not a bad place to be, because everything you said is true. It's where I find myself most days. It's a step in the right direction imo. I also like to remind myself that where I am now is better than I was a couple months ago and not as good as it will be a couple months from now. Just keep on keeping on...
Also, sounds like you and S had an amazing day. Good for you. Baseball games are always fun, burgers are pretty awesome too, and good times with loved ones are priceless...
Me: 38 W:31 Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4 M: 10 years T:12 years BD:Jan 3, 2018 W moved out: Apr 13,2018 Filed for D: Jun 2018 D final: Sep 2019