V thank you for your opinion- it helps me to get a different perspective. A WAW has usually thought about walking away for a long time and knows about guilt. They consider it the price to pay.
My thoughts are that W saw how devastated S was when we talked about separating to him and how it negatively impacted him yet while she was still here she walked around as if it did not matter. He even went to sign a letter to her "From your forgotten Son". I have not spoken bad about my W to my S. And I would not want to guilt her back. I have come to the conclusion that I do not want to be with someone that does not value or love me. It sort of hit me after hearing the line in a Whitney Houston song- "Learning to Love Yourself- Is the Greatest Love of All!"
I have done my best to this point to let W go and detach. At this point I think I feel more pity than anything for my W. I am sad that she is not herself- that she is not happy. I am aware that she has chosen this path and that she must venture on this journey alone.
On a better note I had a great day with my S. After doing my morning routine and doing a 2 and a half hour bike ride, Doing a load of laundry, walking the dog and going to church. My next door neighbor won some great baseball tickets and could not go so he offered them to me and my S. We were 10 rows from the field and my son were discussing pitching, strategies, and all nuances thru out the game. Our team lost in extra innings but still it was a good game. S and I went to eat at his favorite burger place after. So good to spend that time with him. My hope here is for S to enjoy this game and his time with dad because he has his own game he has to play tomorrow.
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18
