Patience & DB / Detach or Divorce

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I am not emotionally detached from W yet. I just dont know what to do. I want to see whats out there in the new area I moved to. I will not invite W to beach. If she expresses interest I guess she can be included but I doubt she will.

I will try to pull further away- not be always available so she can miss me.

I want to ask her for help also. For example we eat a vegan diet which can be difficult. I have camp this week and get pizza for the kids. Would be a lot easier to ask W to drop me lunch since she is ten min from camp and there is a playground for D3 to play at. I guess I just need to handle everything on my own. Even though I pay for her life not have any expectations or expect anything in return.

Took D3 to team pool party after tournament today. Mentioned I was starving expected W to include me in dinner but didnt ask... should of just said hey can you make me dinner too... we always have had miscommunication from assumption. Need to continue to work on communication and asking to get my needs met (NMMNG). Fun time for D3 but I am spent... heading into camp week just feeling ground down. Still more work to do tonight.

No effort to expend on W and DB or whatever. One more week then my coaching season ends. Have to do a lot of planning for next year but much more free time.

In terms of dating- Something new sounds appealing with a woman that can add value, fun, excitement, strong, independant, rather than being such a drag. Anxiety, broken, fragile, secrets, hiding phone, financially, cant talk about many things, no physical contact / intimacy, feel like Im kind of torturing myself at this point. I want W back in a way she can not be at this point...