Gordie #20: patiently living my life

[Gordie]

Gerd

Hahaha

Yes think I got a different impression of you

I have never gone to the movies or a concert by myself

Always with someone



Journaling

So topic of church today was when God does not answer your prayers in the way you want and the idea that we are made perfect in our weakness

I am feeling more hopeful that my w is still baking but has been making more progress on her own journey

Some days she wants to spend a lot of time together and honestly I sometimes find that to be too much and do need some alone time

Question is who is this new woman who rejects all of her former beliefs and values

Second question is I too have changed and who am I now and what do I want

What remains the same are my own fundamental beliefs one of which is I committed to this woman for life before God

Truth be told I struggle with this and what this all means

Maybe there is a happily ever after with reconciliation and a better marriage

But there is also a real prospect of divorce

And another real prospect of a loveless and sexless marriage

Trying to be realistic and patient and faithful