I laugh because I feel so much different now. Detachment is the difference. The whole concept is difficult to explain and oh so important. So important to consistently maintain. Fear is the obstacle. It is like a diet. You are afraid to start. You have to commit. You will struggle at points. You will slip. Just recommit and get back to it. Drop the rope.
You wrote this less than a week ago. It's good advice. Take it...
Me: 38 W:31 Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4 M: 10 years T:12 years BD:Jan 3, 2018 W moved out: Apr 13,2018 Filed for D: Jun 2018 D final: Sep 2019