Friends and therapist say move on cant believe I want to be with her still... She is not dating guys on tinder. She has had our daughter almost every night. This is because of my work scheduled and she could very well start dating once my busy season ends next week.

IF anyone is talking to other people its more likely me. I may go on a date next weekend. I truly believe that W wants to be together but feels like she cant do it or doesnt know how to make it happen. I kind of doubt she is willing / able to do the work to make it happen. I think she needs IC but she wont do it and I cant / wont tell her to. Our daughter is telling her Im the best dad, she said I want to sleep at dads tonight I want to go to dads when we facetimed. She says she wants to watch a movie, plays anxiety card about anything more serious, but says she wants to go on a date.

Honestly I dont know Im not sure if I want her back. IF I do want her it is the healthy version the woman who is strong, independent, consistent, not this fragile broken version who cant deal with being around me and cries all the time when things get hard. Part of me feels like I caused her to be broken. But I cant fix her I tried my best months ago.

Fun GAL activities tonight with live music at a neighborhood party of some work associates. Thanks all for the opinions and support.


H: 33 W:32
M: 5 T: 8
D: 4
BD: 6/2017
MO: 6/2017
House sold: 6/28/18
W wants to build friendship / relationship- 9/18
Paying $ support since 7/18.
Physical Reconnect- 10/18
W Starts- IC / MC - 10/18