Gordie #20: patiently living my life

[Gerda]

Gordie, you are an inspiration in your ability to not justify yourself.

I know it hurts. You are brave to keep walking through the hurt. I hope you feel God is with you as you walk.

I am very happy that you liked the song! Didn't you find the lyrics to be so apt as far as our lives?

I am very curious why you were surprised that I listen to music like that. Is it because I am such a devout little flower? I don't really listen to Christian music except Jenn Johnson and a few others from Bethel. I like loud heavy music like Soundgarden, Nirvana, etc. when I write especially. I love Florence and the Machine and Aurora and Sia and Lana Del Ray and all those kinds of ladies. I listen to some rap and hip hop, mostly the artsy kind that would be in the Colors Project on Youtube but I love for example the new song by JayZ and Beyonce! One of the happiest nights of my life was going alone to hear Ray La Montagne at Carnegie Hall and I get to see him again at Radio City this fall!

I love to be by myself and go to movies or to hear music alone when I can, which is almost never now but that's what I did before kids. My mother bought me the Ray LM ticket for my birthday some years back and then something went wrong and they sent me two tickets by way of apology, but I really wanted to go alone so badly that I sold the other ticket on craigslist. I had to pretend that I wasn't going because I didn't want to have to talk to the person to whom I sold the ticket. So at the concert I never said a word to the person sitting next to me just in case she would be able to figure it out! It was such an amazing concert, I felt like I was flying for days after.

Wow, that was a long ramble.