Gordie #20: patiently living my life

[Gordie]

Met with one of my iRL buddies for lunch whose w also left him five years ago to run off with OM and has yet to sign the d papers so he knows exactly what I am going through

We discusssd the latest developments and he thought I looked good and was handling things well

He was baffled at some of the weird stuff I just cannot write on here

He said the only thing I can do about that stuff is listen

His assessment is w is still searching for something but that things are not terrible and in fact getting better

She tried OMs which did not work and is now searching elsewhere

Like all of you he encouraged patience and that this cannot last forever

He said it will be longer than six months maybe a few more years but not ten years and could I keep this up for an extended period of time

He said I will likely never get the remorse and apology I am looking for so I should just drop that desire

He knows my kids so we spent a long time talking about them and how this has affected them and how important it is for me to stay in this for them