Thanks a bunch LW, Nicole, Helena and V.
V, your advice makes me think of perspectives that I do not consider on my own. While H has been supportive and kind thruout MR and I do not consider I can be emotionally abused, it does not mean circumstances have not changed. Like you point out, having all view points help us all evaluate our sitches better. The only reason I am engaging in mediation is because WAHs desire to get quick D might actually be more beneficial to me and kids per L, I am running everything by L before pulling the trigger.