It is a longtime to spend in a loveless M Helena, if that is how you feel it has been, obviously you would be the better judge of it. In your heart you need to know you gave it your best shot, you made a mistake well hello you are human. Holding the guilt over you and punishing you by withholding love and compassion makes him just as much at fault. Bhappy has a good question for you, have you forgiven yourself? Do you think that you should be forgiven and hold H responsible if he has not done so? - arshi
