This sort of damage can be reversed, just like a vintage car can be easily repaired.
The child finds that hard but the man won't. Do discuss this with your IC.
There are lots of resources out there, free, even on YouTube with demos on shifting childhood FOO and growing in confidence.
Do start with I am enough and if that doesn't help then I can point to other freebie resources. I am a master of the great freebie!
I am looking forward to seeing your shifts. And this has nothing to do with your M but to applying DB to you. I am very encouraged by your attitude especially if you take action. V is very action centred in her thinking and beliefs.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW