Yet Another LBS w/ WAW

[hongaku]

Thank you again, V. I will take what you said into account. The hole analogy came from a film I just watched this past Sunday with my 2 older boys. A character used the line if you want to get out of the hole, drop the shovel. This line struck me at the time and is what lead me to my most recent very long post.

I definitely have some issues related to my FOO. My childhood home life felt very unstable, my parents married at 17 and had me at 20. Money was very problematic growing up and my parents argued a lot and sometimes violently. They are still together and mellowed out drastically over the years, but until I was about 13, things felt very unstable and unsafe at home. At school, I was bullied both physically and verbally and did not make friends easily. I was shy and introverted and these early years, not feeling safe at home or school, were the roots of my depression. I started gaining more confidence and friends in high school (other outcasts mainly) and things got better at both school and home, but the damage was already done and it took me many years to admit there was a serious problem, get diagnosed and start treating it with therapy and medication - until this past year in fact.

Regardless, the challenges feel unreal to me at the moment. The mental health issues, the seeking employment issues, the MR issues all just slamming me at once and I am needless to say having great difficulty working through these various challenges effectively. They are all related, yet separate issues.

I have checked out the RTT stuff you suggested and I am going to research it further and try out the free stuff. Thanks!