Patience & DB / Detach or Divorce

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Feeling pretty lonely. Dont really have anyone Im close to around here or in general. It was just W and I for years. A lot of friendly acquaintances but miss the family more than anything.

I guess I just have to feel the pain and grow from it. Build a life and better future for myself and accept that it is what it is. Still hurts though thats for sure.

Whether I want to or not I feel like the only choice I have is to move on from my W. She shows no feeling no caring about me or our relationship. My go to has always been women for validation or sexual conquest to feel better... external factors. I recognize this more since reading NMMNG.

Going to set up my place and try to be productive. Always feels better. Strive to reach my potential consistency...