Not so new here. #2

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Loves havent read all your sitch but be strong for your baby. Whether your H wants you back or not is not in your control so when that thought comes through your head note it and put it to the side. I have done a lot of meditation, the headspace app has been great for me.

I dont know what your health or fitness level is like but I know moms that do little exercises with their baby hold them overhead and do lunges hold them in front of you and do squats etc. One you will feel better getting the blood flowing and exercising, two it is an activity you and your baby can share that will lead to long term happiness and connection, three the baby will probably love the motion and laugh which will make both of you happy.

Post here instead of texting him SAturdays arent the same literally just send the text here instead. Or put it on my chain I dont mind and will respond to you.

You sound like me - blaming yourself for everything. My W tried to tell me for years she was falling out of love she gave me gratitude journals asked me to see someone etc. But I didnt take her seriously and didnt hear her. It got worse and worse until she left. But she chose to change radically when we had our daughter. She chose to not let anyone babysit, not sleep in the same bedrooms because I needed sleep for work, she chose never to let me lead and always to have to win every argument. Im sure your H did things wrong and if you look deeper Im sure you will see your mistakes were sometimes in response to you not getting your needs met. I dont know you but No More Mr Nice Guy was a book that related to me a lot. I think it would relate for women as well.

I know its hard with a baby but do whatever you can to GAL. Could you find another baby or two and babysit with your child together to earn some extra money? Even if it was just so others could go on a date.

Im good at giving advice. Harder to take it... best of luck!