The bomb woke me up, but she won't talk

[lusa]

Thanks for pulling me up on the mind reading again AS I am trying to catch myself. I think I possibly have temp checked tonight and it has resulted in a big setback.

As I stated above a combination of my current financial situation and my lease expiring has lead me to bring up the fact that I plan to move back in a months time. I didnt check with a L first as it just came out. I did google it though and short of a court order its legal here in the UK.

Me I plan to move back in a month
W you cant just move back without a decision being made on the MR
Me we dont have to discuss that until you are ready, and i wont push for that discussion. I can move back before it happens.
W I just dont know about the MR, we have been getting on a lot better since the S it would confuse the kids if you came back before a decision was made
Me I need to do this for financial reasons
W thats a not good enough reason and if the decision is made to D then we would have to sell the house.
Me OK if necessary we will sell the house. Trying to prevent me moving back here isnt fair. I left at your request 6 months ago out of my love for you and the kids. You are the one that wants out of the marriage, you are the one who has had an affair, you should be the one to leave.
W F off

I then left quietly.
Now Im scared and I am wishing I had just properly followed Sandis advice and pulled back properly and everyone elses advice on detaching.

This is the first time weve had a discussion like this in 4 months and she doesnt seem to want me back at all. I dont know if I was taking my balls back or backsliding hugely. At least I didnt beg her and cry like i did at BD.