Thanks, Sandi. I wonder...when you're completely detached, it seems as though they would (of course, here I am trying to be logical in an illogical situation...hahaha) justify that you've given them what they want, so they don't feel guilty? Or...
You know, I can't even pretend that I understand the "logic" there. hahaha.
-- you detach > they see you ok, which justifies it to them and they maybe come back...?
you don't > they see you hurt, they feel bad...and they do more --
That's just about the most backwards sounding thing I've ever heard! Hahaha!
Really, I'm doing fine this morning. I stumbled across W dating profile saying she was "super spontaneous" and had a "heart of gold"...and at first it stung. Later on I decided that you know...I know that's total BS (the heart of gold thing), so I decided to look at it as kind of funny instead. I think that made a bit of difference in how I feel this morning.
Trying to move on. I know I can't save this M on my own (ultimately we can turn it around, but the reality is that no M can work without both partners wanting to work at it). In the meantime, meeting new people and going out and doing things would probably do me some good. I don't have any plans to do anything crazy, but I've got to get out of the house.
Who knows what will happen. I did fill out some information to try to get legal aid, since I can't afford to just outright pay an A to get this handled.
You know, I still wish it could work. And maybe one day it will.
But today is not that day. So I'm just going to do the best I can to be content with me.
