Your Wife likely has every reason to not want to see you. You claim "She definitely loves me", you sure about that? It sounds to me like you have been controlling, manipulative and stalking her. Your behavior is definitely controlling, and bordering predatory.
I am thinking, you WANT her to get a RO against you. it will help you with your "Misunderstood victim" narrative you seem to be constructing. You are using DBing to make yourself feel like the discarded victim, when I am starting to get the picture that your wife is justifiably exiting a dangerous and abusive relationship.
You express ideas of grandiosity, omniscience, a need for control and are stubborn to a fault.
I think you have some serious control issues, and a superiority complex that is DANGEROUS.
Honestly, i think if you keep on the path you are on, you are going to end up in JAIL.
Im not going to wish you luck at this juncture, as i think you are acting as your own worse enemy.
I hope you discover peace and wisdom Sir.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds