Can I really do this #4

[Dtrmned]

More confused today than anything.
Still amazingly lonely in this world and lost.
Got home yesterday, did my run, it was a little hot and we had the doors/windows open. D was watching tv so I just got my book and read in the front room (which was cooler and quieter). W saw what I was doing, went upstairs and got her book and came down and layed down in the sofa in the same room and read her book as well. Usually, lately, she would not have done this. She even asked a couple of questions prior and during (nothing major, "is it cooler in here?" " Can't handle the kids and the tv anymore", etc. But just casual convo. I answered briefly and went back to my book.

Just concerned about the July 4th issue. Its very slow at work this week so I have to try to make myself busy and will definitely not be here all day or at all tomorrow.

Awoke in the middle of the night to find her and I were slightly entangled (still a pillow in between for her back). Enjoyed the moment and moved on.

Said our goodbye's this morning and here we are.

Limbo land!!!