It's crazy the emotional roller coaster puts themselves through during this process. It's no wonder the best thing to do is give space. I can go from hour to hour with total opposite thoughts. I know the LBS feel that the other person does not care, but I do not believe that. I believe that they are going through the exact same thing. But they have a different way of showing it. And maybe not to the extent of the LBS.
Last night I had thoughts again of just giving up. Thinking I'm silly for even remotely considering that there is s chance for us to reconnect. My mind constantly battles itself. To the point of mental exhaustion which leads to physical exhaustion. Reality is, it would be easy to give up, go meet some new guy, and basically physically move on. But I know that would just be a cover. A temporary fix, if even.
So I'm still standing. Still confident. He WILL be back.
