Mostly a quiet weekend. W is having some kind of "bug" she said for her health issues (hence the 4 hour nap on Thursday). She was on the couch most of the weekend, but did get outside for 45 minutes for a walk on Saturday. That knocked her out for the rest of the day and for Sunday as well.
We didn't talk much, watched a little tv together. I did some housework and the kids pitched in a ton so very proud of them! We got a lot done and I told them how much I appreciate them.
I did do a little bit more for my W this weekend due to the health issue to make her a little more comfortable. I would have done that for any house guest, so I didn't feel I was doing anything "wrong" in the db'ing sense.
Going to bed last night, I always reach my hand over to help her into bed. Bad back/neck issues and the bed is fairly high off of the ground. I just haven't gotten out of the habit for some reason, but she hasn't grabbed my hand for help in 2 months. Last night she did. Also, I always let her know when I am leaving in the morning and to have a good day. She usually responds with "you too". Today it was a full sentence "I hope you have a good day too".
Nothing major, nothing minor. I am just working on myself to get out of my own head. I have to constantly remind myself that there is nothing that I can do outside of db'ing that will wake her up. She has to wake up, get out of the fog, or whatever by herself. Unfortunately I think this is going to be a bit of a tough week. Slow at work due to the holiday and then of course Wednesday off for the holiday. What do we do as a family? We usually go to a friends home and watch the fireworks from their backyard with a nice backyard bbq party. REALLY don't want to do that yet as I think that would be way too much pressure on all of us. But what do we do? Anything? I guess time will tell. I will ask the kids what they would like and W as well.
W slept ok, but she looked exhausted when she got up this morning. I am working on my own stuff. Looking, hoping, praying and having faith that somehow WE can work together to bring our MR back together and be better than ever. I know this is way too soon to think like this, but how do you keep yourself from these thoughts?
M51 W44 T21 M18 D14 S11 BD date 9/17 W filed 02/18 W withdrew petition following week In house separation 03/18 In Limbo and DB'ing since 03/18 W is moving out by mid Nov 2018 A drawing up paperwork 11/18
