The bomb woke me up, but she won't talk

[lusa]

The holiday went as planned, as you stated a fun family holiday with no romance, R talk or pressure.
I know W enjoyed it very much although it was strange playing happy families while still being officially separated.

Since our return, we have spent sometime together and I have GALed all weekend at a music festival. She has voiced concern about me leaving the home earlier than expected last week to see a friend and calling in half an hour later than expected last night. This seems very strange and controlling for a W who apparently does not want to be with me.

I am resuming my detached position of never initiating going there and only accepting some invitations. I am still finding this really hard as its so counter intuitive. I am getting used to the fact there might never be any chance of R or even a discussion about it ever again.

The six month lease I took on a property is up next month and I am considering giving them notice that I will move out. I think for financial reasons, not R reasons, I need to move back to the family home whether she agrees to it or not. However I am not sure how to bring this up with her as I would prefer to do it with her blessing than without.