Thanks so much for your support Nicole. It means a lot. You are absolutely right - she shouldn't be rewarded at all, but unfortunately she will get most of what she wants because that's the law. And the law doesn't take emotion or affairs into account at all. As I said, it's an ass..
I am feeling a little better about things today. Detaching, trying not to care what she says or does. My sister is being so supportive too, and is constantly keeping me positive and also giving me insight into the female mind (very helpful, even if it is a bit partisan!). She and I went for a run last night - it was good to get out, and exercise helps me think clearly. It's clear I have a strong family support network and it is helping so much. I am lucky in that respect.
I do really just want this over with so I can move on, but on the other hand don't want her to get anything more than she absolutely has too. We are only just starting the mediation journey unfortunately, so this still has a long way to go. It's the kids I'm worried about. She says she is too - but that's just words. Her actions and the way she is treating me suggest the only thing she cares about is herself.
More updates in the next couple of days.
_______________________________________________ M47 W50 T-21 yrs M-19 Yrs S17 S15 D12 Found out about A 04/12/18 BD 04/15/18 Admitted A, name of AP and separate rooms 04/29/18 Told kids 07/22/18
