Today has actually been really great. I got a surprise visit from my older two kids from my first M. That was a great surprise.
I think all of the bs has been helping me detach more and more, because I'm at a point right now that I really don't care anymore what W is doing. Obviously she cares what I think to be watching me so closely, but I think everyone has a point where they say eff it and just stop caring so much.
Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe not. I know the DB principles are good, and they are becoming part of my life in general. So I know that no matter what happens, I'm going to be just fine.
I know there's still some emotional stuff to sort out inside my head, and I know there's still the court stuff to go through.
Honestly...at this point I'm just going to do what I know I need to do and let W figure her own mess out.
I feel better right now. I still wish things were different, but that's not anything I can control. I'm just gonna do me, and see what shakes out.
I got a surprise visit from my older two kids from my first M. That was a great surprise. 
