Anniversary is a rough day

Sounds like you are handling it well

I second gerda and d n j

They are wise souls and good people

Like your book selections but also encourage you do do some reading for pleasure

Sports history thriller sci-fi whatever

Really hard to just read and think about relationship stuff all the time

Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving