Its hard to describe what I find applicable in your situation to mine. I think it has to do with mindset and perspective. Our Ws havent followed the same path, but I read a lot of my own thoughts and feelings in your posts. I feel like we see things similarly. With what you post and the way you articulate your feelings, I feel like much of the advice you are given helps me too. I feel myself start to let go and begin to think there is no hope in my situation for any kind of recovery, and then I see you were in that place too, but have moved past that in to a different place. The movement I see in your situation helps me maintain a sense of sanity. I dont even mean positive movement with your R, although you seem to have that at a snails pace, I just mean any movement at all.
Like I said, kind of hard to describe how I view our situations as similar, but I think maybe I just see us as similar. I hope your day is going well.