Well, there's just so much I feel has happened these past few months. I find I am laughing more and eating life with a much bigger spoon. I am healing.
I have little contact with my ex and what little I do have is too much. He still occasionally rage emails me. We use a scheduling app that is meant to be just that: an app for scheduling when the kids go where, etc. Last week he sent me a nasty email complete with a nasty tone. I simply said that I would not address his issues as they were not appropriate for a scheduling app and also, the whole point of the app is to maintain a calm tone and stick to scheduling.
I have to say I am so relieved to have limited contact with him. When you live it you get so used to it. When you distance from it you regain a sense of seeing how crazy it all is. He is such an unattractive pit bull of a guy these days.
Here's a funny one. He sent me a text where he suggested an alteration the schedule. He recommended that I take the kids every weekend. Guess replay has a vise grip on him. He pitched it in the most ridiculous way. He said this would give me "my freedom." Talk about projection. I told him I'd stick with the current schedule.
Then he sent me another email proposing (again) a July schedule where he (again) had every weekend free of the kids.
Time and patience are the two greatest warriors. I feel myself healing piece by piece.
Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13 BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room" 8/15: H back to MBR 10/15: H back in dorm room 1/18: H files, now divorced
