Thank you so much AJM, Tad, Andrew, Pax Luv, DnJ, kml and Westo for your kind and gentle words.
They warm my heart.
Andrew, i might or might not regret this decision but i said yes to ex- h to attend. The truth is he will be there to support our children as all 6 of us( me, my brothers and sisters ) will be fully involved in the ceremony. From opening it with the honouring walk while holding the cross and " cierges"( candles ), to readings and psaulm etc. We are doing it all in honour of our mom.
It will be hard but it will be BEAUTIFUL and something each and everyone will carry in their hearts, including my children!