Affair discovered 2

[STH17]

I spent last Thursday night thru yesterday noon away from my wife and son while I attended my cousin's wedding. I wanted to call to talk to my son during that time, but I didn't, as I also wanted to just have some distance and time for just myself apart from all the trouble at home. I also had the job interview yesterday which went well enough besides their "standard starting salary" being much less than I was expecting.

But I have a confession. Before going to the interview, I was home alone and W's computer was unlocked. I've resisted the temptation to snoop for a while, but yesterday I made the wrong decision. I read messages between her and her two friends. I learned OM's first name, and that he knows she is married. And W saying things like he's everything I'm not. Of course I felt a lot of anger reading the messages. There was plenty of bashing of me from her and her friends. I think I noticed though that although every mistake of mine was immediately shared with her friends, the things I've done right go unreported.

It's been hard to get off my mind, and it feels like a big step backward for me.