After my long text and my post requesting that people leave me alone...something happened today.
I had a dr appt, so I went to that. When I got home, I came upstairs and got a shower. While I was in the shower, W came to pick up S from the sitter. I didn't realize that.
I went down, saw her car, and I just got in my car and left to take care of some business around town. I didn't stick around to talk, and only looked to see if she was near the car so I could wait till she was gone. I left before she got out of the sitter's apartment.
A few minutes later, she called. I let it ring a few times, and then I answered. I expected her to try to start a fight.
She asked if I was planning on going to S appt tomorrow. I reminded her that she never told me when it was. She pointed out that I could always call the dr and ask (which I had already done, but didn't tell her that I did). I told her that I was. She let me know that the dr had moved the appt to later in the day, and she wouldn't be able to make it because she has work in the afternoon, and she asked if I would take him to the appointment...which I had planned to do when I set up the previous appt that she moved.
I told her that I would take him. She asked if I would be home in the morning so she could drop him off, I told her "I should be."
She then asked me very politely if I would please be there. So I said that I would.
I told her that for him, I would always be willing to get him to the doctor, with or without her, because he comes first.
She texted me the times of the appointment. I said "Excellent. Thank you for the reminder. Have a great evening, and I'll see you in the morning."
I get the feeling that someone must have sent her a screenshot of my post about not wanting to know anything that she's doing. It feels like she's reaching out because she is losing control over me, and she knows it. Which is amusing in a way.
She always knew I'd be there for her. But with me being away from home most of last week, and then me leaving today without trying to talk to her or even look at her (and the fact that you can totally hear my shower from downstairs, and being the middle of the day...), it feels like she's trying to very sneakily figure out what I'm up to.
I still wonder what she's up to, but I'm really trying to do the "I don't care what she's doing" thing. And I mean it. I'm focusing more on detaching than I have in the past. I started taking my ADHD meds again today so that I can focus on things I need to be doing. Honestly, the meds improved my mood dramatically once they kicked in.
I'm considering going out to karaoke tonight, although I have to get up at a decent time tomorrow to take S to the doctor, so that might not happen. Plus, if I go out and she's there...I'll probably just get angry that she's taking the night off (again) to have fun, and just doesn't want to have to get up super early. It's speculation, sure, but it's a thing she's done before.
