Patience & DB / Detach or Divorce

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Feeling a lot of anger, spite,resentment and like I am fed up frustrated and done. Anyone familiar with feelings like this when the separation gets real. Her dream house we custom renovated is a cluster of anxiety, negative emotion and our lifes of stuff we are splitting. Thousands of dollars are being spent to separate. Now that the money starts flowing reality hits.

Feeling like F you go ahead and move on without me. I brought up divorce and W asks if that is what I want and seems to almost cringe. Maybe she is just scared but at this point I do not even want to give the three months I agreed to.

The amount of work to move and split everything is incredible. Subconsciously I think I knew I would be done if we got to this point.

I love the idea of our family and my W and I. I love the woman she could be. I love the woman inside but I do not have her. I think she is beautiful and that is the hardest part. I honestly may just try to see her as little as possible.

For those that have been following my sitch. Any thoughts options or advice? I guess I should not make a rash decision while I am emotional. We are splitting everything anyway so why not just D. I honestly can not think of any reason to stay married. Maybe I will try to give it a month after my work frees up to see if anything changes. That coincides with D3 birthday.