KML, the single parents meetup group in our area is currently closed and there's a waiting list believe it or not. I didn't sign up for the waiting list yet because it just seems odd that there'd be a limit to the number of people in the group. I guess there are reasons for it. I'd start a new one except we're already booked the whole summer so I wouldn't be able to organize or attend any of my own events. I do hope to meet some single parents although the bigger issue for me is just the general perception that others are better off than I, as much as I'm sure that's not true. It's just my attitude I need to adjust.
All, after I posted that updated my husband called and said his car lease is ending and it's time for him to return his car this week and pick a new one. He asked what I thought about a more expensive car. What can I really say? No? I have no idea how much money he's even earning or has. I told him I always wish for him to be happy and I hope he can get the car he wants, but I'm not in a position for him to cut back his financial support for us at this time. He was nice about it, said "ok, I'm just so stressed about the whole situation. I don't know what to do." I didn't ask any further questions. He said he'll think about it more and that was it.
This limbo period is just bizarre because I have no idea how my husband defines "the whole situation." I don't know if he's talking about the divorce process, or about supporting us financially, or if he's considering us to still be a family. I don't want to ask questions because I don't want to pursue.
I don't know why my husband needs my blessing to pick the car that he wants. I just hope he doesn't make a bad financial decision but otherwise who cares what he gets?!
I'm not sure what's the point of this message except to say I have no idea whether I'm headed closer to divorce or reconciliation at this time. I guess I have to keep waiting to find out unless I file for divorce myself first.
