Afraid of the dark PART 3

[Ste7e]

Argh I blew it yesterday
Woke up to texts from WAW asking me to sign waiver of D notice
Told her I couldnt until I am back in 3 weeks
She then called to say she couldnt take care of pet at my house if I didnt sign it and take care of it that day
Talked for an hour and a half got into a fight over the phone and totally melted down
I asked her if she loved me and she flat out said no
In the end I agreed to sign and send it back
I called back later and cried on the phone alot
I am soo overwhelmed and exhausted out here in LA and had been doing a really great job of GAL and been making some serious plans for opening a business when I get home and working on detachment
And this has just ripped open my emotions and knocked me down where I just want to go home now
I feel like all the headway DB I was doing I destroyed by the conversation
Feeling hopeless and admittably suicidal emotionally (do not worry I would never hirt myself) just feel so defeated and worthless