We see L for consultation tmrw. IC, L, bank, Uhaul tomorrow. Another fun filled day.
I want to R but really tired of feeling helpless to make any progress. I know she needs to heal or Maybe just feel a sense of loss like she is going to completely lose me... still has anxiety around me. Going to focus on detaching GAl and 180s. She initiates a lot of text convos. Just wait to respond and be short and sweet?
She keeps pestering me about beach vacation plans. Because her mom pesters her. We always went for D3 birthday. I will be there for a few days staying with friends. Overlapping with her parents where she will stay. I may get a room for one extra night to have D3 for an overnight. Or just say f it and do my own beach trips w D3. Thoughts on celebrating D3 birthday together? I guess it would just be awkward... But maybe good for D if we are all there for her?
Really feeling sadness tonight after work coming home back to reality from enjoyable job. Nervous about move to new location. Been in the relationship since 24.
Finished NMMNG. Going to read it again at some point. I have Seen some posts of success stories from michelle talking about being a great friend to spouse and then R. That is what seems to work best. Limit my contact w her and when we do interact be happy bubbly like a nice friend happy to see D3 etc.
Thanks all for advice & input. Really tired of sitch over a year now separated.
H: 33 W:32 M: 5 T: 8 D: 4 BD: 6/2017 MO: 6/2017 House sold: 6/28/18 W wants to build friendship / relationship- 9/18 Paying $ support since 7/18. Physical Reconnect- 10/18 W Starts- IC / MC - 10/18
