I feel you MTB. I have accepted that WW has gone beyond the point of no return, at least for the time being. It does $uck to have to sit there and decide between "For better or worse, in sickness and health" Vs. Self defense, self preservation and self respect.
Even with things as bad as they are in my sitch, i still have these thoughts also. I couldnt realistically even take WW back now if we both wanted to, there is too much collateral damage to our families, friends, she has slandered me to everyone she knows. How do you even recover from that?
Ive found as detachment increases, so does disappointment. I used to be so PRODUD to be her husband, and i never wanted to be single again, and to be a man who was only ever married once, divorced never with my partner to grow old with.
Life can be surprising.
At least ive learned a lot about myself through this ordeal.
Keep it up MTB. You are a pillar of stone man. You inspire me.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds