The beginning of a long and painful journey

[Rawpain]

Just a bit of dialogue. I had a great weekend with the kids. So much fun swimming and at a childrens charity race event. I invited some friends around with there kids so I could cook a Sunday lunch. I used to make one every two weeks but since W has gone it doesnt seem worth it for me and the kids. So it was nice to do that. We watched the football and I got all the house work done. It was a good weekend.
Today though I have really been missing W. I ran out of space on my phone and had to go through my pictures to delete some. It was hard looking how much my life has changed since Christmas. I miss her so much. I have so many negative feelings towards her and dont think I want her back and I am looking forward to what possibilities are ahead of me but I do miss my W.

On another note. I ordered two sets of dog tags with my kids names birthday there weight and time they were born. I got a blue one and a pink one and kiss them before bed and have found this really helps when I dont have them with me. I told my S that I wear them all the time to keep you next to my heart. My S and Dd both get the spare of each set with there details on and I have ordered them both another tag each with an enscription on from me. I hope they manage to keep them forever.

Just wanted to get this out. Thanks all for reading.