Weekend was calm and going uneventful. Today started well, then D started acting up. Ended up in her pitting W and me against each other which we were came together ok, but D basically said in a conversation with all 3 of us:
"I know you guys are separating and I don't want to spend every other week with you. We have grown apart and I really don't even like you that much".
Ouch! W and her have always been closer especially recently as W has been gossiping with her more about life, boys, etc. I am out working and paying the bills, but we have always been cordial except for the Daddy/daughter dynamic of having to discipline etc.
W is pissed now after that now wants to talk later about getting the mediation going. She feels that I am selfish and everything is all about me. I am not beginning to believe that maybe I am the one that is wrong. That I am the bad person in our family. If my D believes it and my W is leaving me, maybe they are right. What does all this mean? Why is this happening? ALL I have tried to do over the last 3 years since the financial issue was to keep my family together. WAS I WRONG TO EVEN TRY THIS? I feel like just giving up, but that really isn't an option now is it.
I know my D is just a teenager, but what she said really hurt and now knowing my W is going to use this fully to her advantage.
I know this is a roller coaster, but I feel like we just flew off the rails and there is probably nothing that can save this MR. I just need to regroup and focus on my kids.
How can this happen???? Why is it that all I am trying to do is work, provide for my family and try to hold all of this together and now I am the evil, bad, pathetic person?
PLEASE HELP WITH THOUGHTS AND IDEAS!!
M51 W44 T21 M18 D14 S11 BD date 9/17 W filed 02/18 W withdrew petition following week In house separation 03/18 In Limbo and DB'ing since 03/18 W is moving out by mid Nov 2018 A drawing up paperwork 11/18
