Thank-you so much..Sometimes it is difficult to wrap my head around that 7 weeks ago we were vacationing and celebrating our 9th Anniversary and she's telling me how much love she has for me to going in and signing divorce papers in 2 days..It is so bizarre to try and understand and to be honest I might still be in shock..I've heard that their is no OM but her friend has set her up on a date already, this coming after she just told me "Im using this time to find out who I really am"...It is clear she is no longer the loving,nurturing wife that I've been with for 12 years but I can't seem to find a strategy to get her out of my mind and heart...I keep ruminating, looking for answers to how she could become this selfish horrible person that seems brainwashed by her horrible new best friend who is also divorced after years long affairs...How could she go down this pathetic path.. I really, truly can't believe how devastating this is to my mind, heart, and soul..I already know the answer to this but is there ever a chance where I can describe to her the destruction and devastation that she's done to not only me, but family, friends? I've done a good job of keeping this to myself..
Sorry lots of ramblings but when I heard she was dating before we signed the Divorce papers, it really through me into anger,panic,desperation mode and I'm struggling come out of it..Thanks as always guys for the support and input
