The beginning of a long and painful journey

[Rawpain]

Just a quick update
I never sent the message above as I was not sure if I should. The W was going on holiday for a week with a gym friend last night. So I sent her a message to ask if she wanted to see the kids for an hour before she goes away. She did and took them to the park and brought them back late as usual. Hardly any interaction between us other than kids stuff- shes back to not being able to look at me when she talks to me. I stayed cheery and calm but probably hung around too long but I was just trying to get the kids in the house. I said- have a nice time she said - thanks.
So I get the kids for a full week without having to see or communicate with her.
The kids were upset and couldnt understand why mummy was going on holiday without them. She lied about where she was going- she said Wales in the uk but no she is flying to tailand . We never could afford to go abroad for the whole family so it hurts that she now can on her own. Well at least in a few weeks I am going away for a week with the kids and get to make some great memories with and for them.
Her loss.