Now that I've stopped cooking and grocery shopping for W, she's been quick to start doing those things for herself. I think my feeling is mostly jealousy, as I have been cooking for her for years, and now that I've stopped, she shows me she is perfectly capable of doing what I did for her, but she rarely did that for me. She seems to be cooking more food than she could eat herself. I've been wondering if I should just start eating the food she is cooking now too. I'm still paying all the bills and watching our son half the time. Everything just is really tense between us.
Right now W ignores me and I ignore her for the most part. We don't even say hello or goodbye to each other when we come and go from the house.
I am going to another wedding this weekend across the country and will be leaving tonight and returning Tuesday morning next week. I also have a job interview on that Tuesday in the afternoon. W can't watch son that afternoon, so I asked my mom to watch son. I told W that today, and she got angry, because about 7 months ago she told my mom she didn't want her watching our son by herself anymore. W is as angry at my mom as she is at me, if not more. And W probably thinks I am not respecting her decision about my mom not watching our son. Anything my W doesn't blame me directly for in our relationship, she blames my mom for raising me to be how I am. I don't want to see or think about W until my interview is over next week. I would like to talk to my son during that time though. W is taking him with her to a baby shower out of state for the weekend.
I just feel my anger and resentment building more and more the longer W stays in our house. I have the bedroom now but the rest of the house is a dump now that I've stopped cleaning it. I admit I wanted my W to feel some shame and discomfort by sleeping on the couch herself, but I sense that it hasn't phased her a bit.
I've noticed she has stopped using our joint credit card, but now that she is using her own card, she could still make payments on it out of our joint checking account, which would be a surprise to me and could overdraft our checking account. I still need to talk to her about that.
Me:30 W:31 S:4 M:7 T:12 PA: 5/6/18 - ? W moved out 7/18
