Thank you for the insight Overrnbw and Tofbrks, I appreciate it!
Just a little journaling. Thankfully I am feeling a little bit of peace this morning..as I know that no matter what happens, I am going to be able to have a good life. If she decides she wants to work on the R, fine. There will be a lot of time, patience and pain involved. If she decides to file for D, there will be a lot of time, patience and pain involved. So I guess my point is, there isn't going to be an easy way out, no matter what the outcome.
I'm finally getting it through my thick head what all of the DB tasks are for...they are to help me...because I think we all have it in our head that if the W would just wake up and turn around, that everything would be back to normal...but it just isn't so. We are all here because we are faced with this same situation..there is no easy road, no matter the outcome. We have to not have hope for a R or otherwise, we just have to have hope that we will come out on the other side.