I'm almost at the end of my work with this contract.
I've found it quite tiring and I've had lots of dreams that were very obviously about processing things (because of the company I'm working for at the movement, and the very strong links they had with XH).
But I'm almost at the end. Just another couple of days now, and I'm very settled in and know what I'm doing with the work.
I finally ordered a new sofa bed. The one that I had, I had had as a W present. It had started to break while we were still M, and finally broken maybe a bit before BD? Lol...what a metaphor!!
I remember being pretty angry with XH one time, as early on in our M, when the sofa bed was still quite new, he had fallen asleep on the sofa bed with a large glass of red wine in his hand and it had spilt all over it I had got up for work the next morning to find him still asleep there and the big patch of spilt red wine dried into the new ivory sofa bed. I tried to wake him up, but obviously nothing was waking him up. And when he eventually did come round it was like he wasn't that bothered about what he'd done.
He did that a lot, from the very beginning...stayed up way after I'd gone to bed, until 3 or 4 in the morning, watching the TV. More often than not, he'd fall asleep on the sofa and I'd find him there when I woke up the next morning.
It made me feel very lonely. I remember asking him a number of times if he would come to bed with me and we could chat and read together and fall asleep together as well. It maybe only happened a third of the time in our M? Only really when he had to get up for work in the mornings (which wasn't all the time, maybe for occasional stretches of a few weeks at a time).
I also remember XH's dad spilling a large glass of red wine on a very beautiful skirt I had: a floor length, bias cut, heavy satin, pale shell coloured skirt. Nothing from him, not even an apology or an offer to have it dry cleaned. I was really shocked. I would have been mortified if I had done that to someone. Anyway, obviously runs in the family.
Well, you could sit on a bit of the sofa bed, but couldn't really sit two people on it any more, or stretch out and relax on it. I hadn't really noticed last year as I was working so flipping hard I wasn't really home much. When I did get home late at night, I'd have a bath and go to bed. And then I'd be up early the next morning to head out the house and start all over again.
I had been looking for a sofa bed, minimal and clean looking, without arm rests at the end, quite small as my living room is very small, and a light neutral colour like stone or grey. Not too expensive either. Quite specific!
I found one. At first I wasn't totally sure about the brand. They didn't have any stores near me I could go and check out. And then I was at a work colleague's house and her daughter had a sofa by the same brand. It was so well designed and built that it made my mind up. I can return it as well, just as an extra layer security, but I'm pretty sure that it'll be very nice. It's arriving in October.
