Totally agree with gerda to take alone time daily

Agree with your desire to spend as much time with the kids as possible

But when the kids are not home or asleep

No reason for you to be there

Please please please take care of yourself

You are in the worst of this

And I know how painful that can be

Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids
2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong
2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2
2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving