Advice on my Scenario Pt. 15-Lighthouse Guardsman

[OrangeK]

Being bitter is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.

I agree. It has been a frikkin burden. the weight of hatred, and resentment is awful. Im just trying to get these dark thoughts and bitter feelings the EFF out. they are rooted in my grey matter like a 400 year old Willow.

I have had very very dark thoughts about her an OM.
When i start going down this path mentally, i honestly contemplate the philosphies of the Jedi and the Sith.

I know its a bit childish of a reference to make, but i have read A LOT of the Star Wars novels, and the conflict of these 2 ideologies is a strong theme between all the books.

"Fear is the path to the Dark Side, Fear leads to Anger, Anger Leads to Hate, Hate leads to SUFFERING" - Yoda.

"You will know Good from Bad when you are at calm, at peace. Passive. A Jedi uses The Force for Knowledge and Defense. Never attack." Yoda


The Jedi Code:
There is no emotion,
There is Peace.
There is no ignorance,
There is Knowladge.
There is no Passion,
There is serenity.
There is no chaos,
There is Harmony.
There is no Death,
There is The Force.

This is the Philosphy i try to embrace, as i fight the easy, fast and dark path that is so appealing in the throws of my anger.

The Sith Code:

Peace is a Lie, there is only Passion
Through passion i gain Strength.
Through Strength i gain Power.
Through Power i gain Victory.
Through Victory, my chains are broken.
The Force Shall Free Me.

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Thank you for tolerating the musings of a Nerd in Pain.
May the Force be with you all.