GAL, 180's and all that are the perscribed method, and if it has worked for hundreds, it seems there is an established pattern there.
I know i have said this in the past, and its a recurring thought, so i figured i would bring it up again.
The issue i have with the method of GAL/ 180's, self care etc. is that it feels like letting her win. Like she got to do all these awful things, and will likely go on to do them again to someone else, without consequence, or any sort of reccompense for what she has done.
Focusing on 180's and GAL feels like turning around and walking away, and just letting her walk into the sunset with OM, and 50% of the time My Son.
I have this overbearing feeling that there is some action i need to be taking that i am not.
it doesn't feel right. I feel like i have been missing some crucial piece of the puzzle of recovery this whole time, and still am. Like there is 1 cog missing in the clockwork of my healing, and when it falls into place EVERY SINGLE gear will begin spinning as it is supposed to, and right now all the other gears and springs are there, and working, but not doing anything due to that 1 missing cog.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
