"So I am just struggling with the sadness, darkness and mostly just down all morning. Maybe it was just being gone, relaxing for a moment, and then getting back and reality rushes and floods back into the heart and the mind. "
But look at the difference in your last two updates. First one "busy, busy, busy" and you were feeling good.
Then you aren't busy and you are struggling.
See the correlation. Staying busy is paramount to remaining more consistently in a good place.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018