I find myself on the roller coaster again. Last night was decent, she stayed with a family member..which is the norm now for much of the time if our 16S is out with his friends. I'm doing things to keep busy, trying to keep my mind off things. As I was sitting there watching tv, I began to feel things loosen a bit, as if I knew one way or another things would be ok. But this morning, I'm mentally backsliding, dreading much of the pain that selling the house and going through the logistics will bring. It's such a strange thing to have her doing things like folding my laundry, bringing me coffee, etc. and then hear that she doesn't want to be with me anymore...I know, I know..there is no making sense of it. I'm trying to be strong today..hoping and praying for strength. Although W wants to go ahead and start getting the house ready to sell when I get back from my two week trip, we live in a state where there is a 90 day waiting period if children are involved. My assumption is that she wants to go ahead and physically separate during the 90 days. Sigh. Apologies, just sad this morning.
