Can I really do this #3

[Dtrmned]

Good day yesterday.

Busy busy busy and only communicated with W on when I called to speak with the kids. It was brief, polite and pleasant.

Didn't have time to get my usual workouts in due to work, but will get a good run in when I get home this evening. Being apart does help in not keeping the situation right in your face 24/7. I can also see being apart as being all consuming some times as you have no idea of anything.

Thank you all for the input and FWIW I am going to do my best to be way more brief in my responses and quit throwing up when we talk. Listen, Validate and finish it asap.

With my background this is very difficult, but I've done difficult before and I will be fine.

Waiting on W to schedule the mediation appointment. She was wanting to due it on Friday of this week, but she has not scheduled it yet. I told her that day would work (this was over the weekend), I just wanted to make sure that we both had enough time to get the pre-paperwork requests done in time. I believe THIS will be a huge hurdle for her as that means she has to do work.

Overall a good trip. Positive with regard to my career. That and my kids are all that I have right now. Still db'ing and would love to get our MR 2.0 started, but I have been warned and am learning that even though there has been a little progress, there are no guarantees and there are definitely no QUICK fixes.

Sandi, I do believe you are right with regard to her friend. AND my W WANTS to believe that I am a bad, angry, evil man so she can justify her decision. I am not that way. I was angry for a couple of years due to the financial loss of everything and I admit and own that. I didn't know how to handle it. I couldn't be angry at my new job, so I ended up just being angry at home. There was never any physical abuse and I guess the argument could be made that because I was angry and short fused that there was emotional abuse, but I was more angry at everything and was reaching and fighting to save my family (the only thing that was important to me at the time) so I reached and grabbed too hard and when my W curled in a corner and withdrew, I tried harder. A bad, bad mix for all of us.

Again, I own this. I have never (and I don't with this on anyone) been through a situation like that ever in my life. I was correct in standing up for what was right. Lost EVERYTHING we had worked for during our entire lives, the business, our savings and our home. YES, I was angry and the litigation, bankruptcy and foreclosure lasted almost 3 years. We are out now, I am back on my feet. Nowhere near where we used to be, but paying the bills and a good future ahead.