Wife is not who I married... Pls Help Part 3

[LoneWlf]

update- Yesterday did my morning routine. Went to the gym came home and did some job searching. Had to get a tire fixed because of a nail in it. Then made dinner and had dinner with S. he continued to study for exams and I cleaned up. We went to S baseball game where he was the starting pitcher. He pitched a great 2 innings. On the third he pitched good but the team made 3 errors allowing 2 runs. We won the game and S was happy.
We came home and got cleaned up and I got S to lead our bedtime prayers. He said, Thank you for my Dad , for making him a part of my life - for allowing him to be my coach. Help him to find a good job so he can help our family. He also said I pray that you open my Moms heart to love so that she can see the goodness in this family and want to become a part of it.
It makes me feel god that he appreciates what I am trying to do. As I probably mentioned before. I am trying so hard to keep it together on the outside but inside I still feel I have a long way to go. Thank you all for your support!