V and Lonewlf, you both are right, i should just walk away. In my efforts of trying to 180 and validate I am slipping. And it is still so hard to believe this is the same guy i have been with and almost grown up with. Looking at his mood swings a friend of mine who knows my sitch thinks he is bi polar, he has claimed he is depressed but how can I get him any help if he is unwilling? The irony is his reason for D is that he feels I have subjugated him the last few years in the MR and this is how he has become? I know a few spouses are angry after BD and H is extreme, but what could contribute to his extreme anger, resentment and then a few days of subdued tolerance? At this point I am happy he is moving out and may be the best way for a R. But I am just worried about separating from kids, it is a bitter pill I have to swallow. V - you are right, this MR is over. I still do want to R, because when it was good we fit very well. I dont know what this phase is, but if he had a physical illness I would have stood by him, now I know he is unhealthy and will still stand by the MR, but keeping myself and kids safe is above all else. Nicole - his plans change every week, its a new thing every time so at this time i am just resigned to the sitch. My strength is being patient, keeping calm and protecting my children and caring for them every minute of the day. Thank you V, lonewlf and Nicole for your support.
